"it's all my fault"
dedicated to Shelly
i was lying in bed crying and thinking about her
what i could have said, what i should have said
i didn't think she would do such, i was stupid to think this
last night she was really broken up, and it seems at rock bottom
i should have said, hey i'll come to you, i'll make everything better
why didn't i tell her i loved her
she was so beautiful the first time i heard her voice, i pictured her smile
from within
she wanted to talk to me, tell me what was bothering her
i felt as lonely as her, i felt as empty as her, she was for me
where is she now, probably gone, and it's all my fault
i loved her with all my heart, i never fully gave it to her
all i have now for her is my tears, my weeping over the loss
if she is alive now, i want her to see my heart, i want her to have it
why have i waited til now, it's too late, and it's all my fault
i love you Shelly, i always will
by Matthew Kooshad
© copyright 2004
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