Nothing

It was nothing
But enough to shatter the heart
Releasing the tourniquet
That stanched the flow
Flooding the wound with the answers
To questions I’d forbidden myself to ask
Voices swirling in my brain
With scarlet red I told you so’s
Small and insignificant
Hiding my dirty hands and face
in a room full of mirrors
but there is no way to hide from the truth
I wear  your shame
Like a heavy winter coat
Weighting me down
I sink and drown in my own tears

Shame

I cried awhile this evening
Thinking you were ashamed of me
But you are only ashamed
Of the you , you pretended to be
You put it out in splendor
You dressed it in a crown
And I was to stupid to see
I was a Cinderella without the gown
It hurts to see the Magician
Stripped bare of all his tricks
It hurts that you didn’t know
The pain the truth would inflict
The next time your ego needs stroking
Think before you come running to me
I now know who you really are
And who you can never be

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